Mostly just need to vent, maybe some advice and reassurance.
Got bedbugs from a very brief but also upsettingly abusive relationship, so there's the emotional toll from that and constantly being reminded of that person on top of all this. Also accidentally transferred them to my parents' house.
My landlord and roommate have been really really unhelpful for all of this, we're on our third spray and I've just learned from looking stuff up on this forum that we've been not doing anything correct and that's why we haven't gotten rid of them yet, probably. (it was so minor, i was with the person for 3 weeks and noticed the bugs 2 weeks after i met them, told landlord right away, had to have caught it IMMEDIATELY)
My landlord gave me virtually NO information about what to do post spray, didn't even tell us what company was used or what was sprayed on the floor. Just keeps sending me passive aggressive emails every time I tell her it didn't work. Roommate doesn't believe she "has them" so hasn't been doing any vacuuming or laundering while I've been losing my mind handcleaning all of my possessions with isopropyl alcohol.
Landlord decided to just, kick us out I guess?? Our lease is month-to-month so they gave us til the end of January. So I DEFINITELY don't have the money to find a new apartment, being I really doubt being like "hey i have bedbugs and need to move now" is a really good sell on my friends in trying to find a new roommate. Would feel absolutely devastating guilt if I brought this on another person.
SO I'm moving back with my parents. Where there are more bedbugs. Where my mom refuses to call a professional and my dad doesn't believe they're even there. WHICH IS GREAT. So I'm not even sure what I should be doing right now? I'm in this horrible limbo of waiting to go home for a month where I know that no matter what I do to get rid of them here I'm just going to have to do it all over again, and where I know nothing I do is going to do anything because I only have control of a very small portion of a larger apartment.
I need to keep it under control for now so I don't transfer it to my coworkers, and I'm also just sick of itching and not being able to visit my friends for the last month that I'm going to be able to see them. I'm exhausted and I don't know when this'll get better and I'm so so sick of this unsolvable problem. I can't believe this is a real thing that can happen to people, I feel like there should be universal laws against problems this unfixable, or at least like, someone to pay for the chemicals? Why is this real?
I think my brain shut off for a while because of the stress because I went a few weeks without thinking about them and without doing the proper cleaning to keep them under control and now they're much worse.
The one upside I have is that my parents' house is smaller than the one I rent a room in, and I have complete access to all rooms there so it can be cleaned more thoroughly.
I'm just endlessly sad rn. Was planning a trip to Japan with my friends before all this happened, can't go now. The future is just so hopeless I don't know how to cope.